The most surreal shit that’s happened to me: an incident that occured 2 years ago- I lived with my dad @ the time (near the ocean).
–One day- a few months after my 21st birthday, I watched him die. & it’s still a dream- I’m living in a dream world where death freezes, stares you in the face. Part of me is still trapped in time, man.
I was there alone when he fell- face first on the pavement. I failed at CPR- whoops, sorry Daddio! It didn’t occur to me, and it still doesn’t really- whatever the fuck that means, hahah- that doesn’t make any sense. Of course his death & his absence from the world occurs to me, I just can’t wrap my head around it.
He left too soon. I don’t have much to say- there are a million details I could give. But I’m not gonna- we’ve all lost someone or something, and I guess we all grieve in different ways. I don’t understand anything.
As Forrest Gump said: “And that’s all I have to say about that.”